Thursday, March 14, 2013

40 Days of Gratefulness - Day 26

Yesterday was a doozy. I had a bad day. I must admit that the last week or so, I felt like some dark cloud was trying to hang over my shoulder. Ha, no worries for me because I was so focused on being grateful, I could shake it off. On Sunday, I biked so fast it couldn't keep up. Remember, what we've learned these last few weeks, gratefulness is a choice but I must say I was jacked up in that a few moments I could be strayed from my course so easily.

Yup, I was cast down from my grateful pedestal, ran off into the proverbial ditch and had started to see the glass as half-empty instead of hall-full. It could have been work, stupid looming sequestration or a call from the nursing home but dayum, I was out for the count - just like that. To add insult to injury, I neglected to pay my mother's phone bill so her service was 'temporarily suspended.' Now,  one would think I wouldn't have forgotten because just last month my grandmother's service was 'temporarily suspended' as well because I forgot to pay that too.

Why didn't I set up auto pay? Why didn't I remember? What I should have been grateful about was that I can afford to pay both bills but I simply didn't remember to pay them. I've run the scenarios over and over again in my head and basically, it seems I've been forgetful a lot. I can't help but attribute it to my head is stuck in these 'grateful clouds' and the 3rd grader (Day 9) in me needed to get it together. I could have been grateful that our business, Better Solutions turned 10 yesterday but 25 days in and I was stuck.

My List!
Pray that I don't hurt myself in boot camp because I am going to get it in! And perhaps that's the culprit too, as I haven't worked out in a few days. I had been enjoying these grateful clouds, this weather, my Roomdog (Day 2), my roomie (Day 23) and my costco rebate check :-) I have about $400 left to blow on something ridiculous, something magical, something incredible ... when my grateful swag returned.

So after several conversations with my Sistas-in-love (Day 3), I discovered something. I had neglected to mention, that with all my new found activities, my daily devotional and my daily bible readings had fallen off. Being grateful takes up a lot of my time. Seems I forgot this blog wasn't simply about me. I had let my guard down, I wasn't being diligent. A good friend of mine says all the time that 'spiritual warfare' is real. And here I was without my 'full armor.' That's from Ephesians 6:13 ... the message translation starts that verse with 'Be prepared.' There it was, I had forgotten to stay prayed up, hence I was no longer prepared and my perspective was off.

An honest mistake, a few of life's twists or simply being forgetful shouldn't have left me feeling like a loser and a liar. But it did. Don't get it twisted, I know that I'm a woman of my word, I'm dependable, right? But I was disappointed that after 25 days I could so easily be derailed and left feeling defeated.

Well, this morning something is at work. I feel much better by sharing my thoughts with you, I made a list to help keep me organized and I'll be continuing my daily devotional and readings. Ahh, how can today feel any different when nothing has changed yet again ... only my perspective.

So on this Day 26 of 40 days of gratefulness, I'm grateful for perspective.


  1. A prayer for my friend...

    Father God,
I come before You with a grateful heart for all that You have done for me and those connected to me. I am especially grateful for my beloved sister in Christ, Cecelia! Thank You for using her as an instrument during this Lenten season as she encourages others to express gratitude on a daily basis. I am also grateful for her transparency, her candidness, and for her honesty, even during the times where she may have fallen short of Your glory. I thank You that You are a forgiving God, a God of another chance, and a merciful God who continues to look past her faults and see her needs. It is my hope and desire, that my sister will follow Your example... to be merciful, to give others another chance, and to be forgiving, even with herself. May You always guide, instruct, direct, and correct those times that she may stray from You and that which You have purposed for her life. I also ask that You would strengthen the hedge of protection around her grandmother, her mother, her siblings and their children, her friends, her place of employment, and all that is associated and connected to her. Thank You for blessing Better Solutions over the past ten years; please continue to give her insight, wisdom, discernment, and knowledge to know how to go to another level of service and impact. I adore You Lord and I love You for putting such a beautiful person in my life. Bless her life, her health, her strength, her finances, her relationships, her thoughts, her words, and her actions so that You would get all the glory from her living. It's in the name of Jesus, our Lord and Savior I pray, Amen.

  2. Aah, you have no idea how this ministered to me this morning. Amen, my friend.